People watching: Interpretations

24 09 2009

He whistles at her from around the corner. At first, she ignores, but then he whistles again. She turns around, with a curious look. She is surprised. “Hey, how have you been?” He places an arm on her shoulder and starts to massage her neck. He utters something about wanting to know how she’s doing. She seems confused, unsure of how to interpret his touch. He tells her to give him a hug, and she does… almost unwillingly, mechanically, like an automatic uncontrolled response. Her eyes seem to ask, “What the hell?” But she hugs him. And he hugs her… and he sighs… and he holds on a few seconds too long. Then, he lets go. She looks to him for an explanation. None. He proceeds to walk her to class.

She is smiling… she is interpreting… she is creating all sorts of fantastic meanings to his every cleverly intentional yet conveniently vague actions.





Writing about nothing

8 03 2009

I have spent the better part of my life journaling about nonexistent relationships. Wishes, hopes, dreams, fantasies of what could have, should have, and would have been fill pages upon pages of my diaries. Yet, what is remains undocumented.

Maybe it’s because of work, school, business. Who has time to journal with all of these responsibilities? Maybe it’s due to all the stress. How can I even think with all that’s on my mind? Or maybe, maybe I’m just living. Not writing about living, but living. Not writing about loving, but loving. Not formulating stories about heartfelt conversations; not imagining the feel of the touch of a hand; not considering the excitement of a long-awaited hug; but experiencing it… all of it! Not in the pages of my journals nor in the recesses of my thoughts, but in my life… finally.








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