Love of a Jealous Kind

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends

You know I’ve been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Trying to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I’d rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than to be broken by a lover I don’t understand
‘Cause I don’t understand

One hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart’s deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride

Jars of Clay

~that’s life… in no particular order


Poison and Wine and Whatever Moves You

So, I joined a writing group. Why? Because that itch, that need to be creative, that gnawing sensation of what I’ve not yet done, of where I’ve not yet gone, of who I’ve not yet been was clawing its way out of my skin and I was left with no other choice. So, I joined a writing group to help me help me.

I sat, giving eager attention, as the women seated around the small table took turns sharing their writings. A devotional. An inspirational blog. A self-help book. A memoir. Words written to help others. Beautiful stories created to inspire.

… Hmmm…

… Thinking and processing…

… I have “nothing” to share…

… Three days later… still thinking… and processing… and “nothing” to share

Enter The Civil Wars‘ Poison and Wine on my Spotify with the moment of truth.

I just want to write love stories. Fantastical, romantic fiction about the human condition in and out of relationships. I want to write about hearts meeting and breaking and mending. About longingly waiting and painfully letting go. About expectant butterflies and unceasing tears. Even if that doesn’t seem very… inspiring, it is what’s moving me.

Here’s a list (in no particular order) of what else is moving me:
Lisa Hannigan “I Don’t Know
aramore “Still Into You”
Rictor “Till the End”
The Civil Wars “Dust to Dust” and “To Whom it may Concern” and “Falling”

Giving Thanks

I am thankful that God is faithful! He gives me the Holy Spirit to guide and support me in all circumstances. He disciplines me and provides people, family, friends, trials and triumphs to mold and shape me into the woman He created me to become. And most importantly, He gave His Son as ransom for my sin, my debt, my death so that I may truly live (aware of His grace and conforming to His truth) now and forever more.

Giving thanks for love, emotions,  connectedness, communication, music, words, talent, gifts, prayers, tears, laughter, hugs, smiles, senses, beauty, pain, touch, warmth, colors, life, death…

Nichole Nordeman, My Offering

No Doubt – Settle Down

No Doubt is back after 11 years (Wow, I feel old saying that)! Anyway, their new single “Settle Down” is definitely climbing it’s way up the “I’m just going to chill and let this roll off my shoulders” chart. Did somebody say, “theme song”?!!!news

The healing in the melodies

I’ve always loved music. I’ve always had a fascination… An, at times, unhealthy, obsession… A deep admiration… And, in some dark places, a strong aversion.

Some music makes me want to dance and sing at the top of my lungs; some make me angry and want to break something, anything. Some make me want to clean; some help me focus on a current task; while others completely drive me to fantastic distractions. Some bring me to my knees in utter ruin, and others still, wash over me like a soothing balm.

How it speaks to me, I can’t quite explain. Sometimes it helps me create, a delicious concoction or a hand-made present. Sometimes it inspires me to write, long flowy letters to old friends, pent-up emotions I couldn’t express, or dreamy short stories I’ve yet to live. But right now, it’s just helping me stay in my own skin… and that’s all I can ask.

What’s moving me lately? Audrey Assad “New Song”:

  • There’s an aching in my body, within my lungs. This web of bones around my heart is coming undone. And I need a new song. I need a new song. I’m waiting in the night for you. Burning in the sky for you… Words are failing, my melodies falter, my voice is breaking, my heart is burning…

Other music  on my current soundtrack: Feist “The Reminder”;  Sovereign Grace Music “The Gathering”, especially “Shine into our night” and “Show us Christ”; Mumford & Sons “Roll Away your Stone”; Adele “19”; Rodrigo Y Gabriela “Area 52”, JOC “Who we are Instead”….